Friday, October 24, 2008

In till the big show...

Well, here I am...at the hospital. My water did actually break on Sunday. I have been leaking slowly ever since. Today I was scheduled to have an ultrasound at 3. Around 2, I felt another dribble and low and behold...more fluid. We got to the ultrasound and they measured less than 2 cm of amniotic fluid. I have been admitted and will be here until Carter is born. I have been given my 1st dose of betamethazone to mature his lungs and will get another tomorrow. I am also getting antibiotics to prevent infection. We spoke with an anesthesiologist earlier and went over everything for my epidural. We are also meeting with the NICU team to discuss what may happen when the baby arrives. I am very sad and upset. I feel as though I let Carter and Steven down. My only job right now is to keep this baby safe and I am not doing so. Steven went home to be with the dogs, so I am on my own right now. I miss him so much.

So, for now I am stuck in bed and playing the waiting game. The doctor said I could go any time, but we're still trying to get to our goal of 34 weeks. Please...any prayers are so appreciated. I will update when I know more about things.

11 comments:

Stacemoe said...

Praying peace for you tonight from Dallas...Please try not to feel guilty and beat yourself up...You have done a wonderful job...some things just happen, and I pray Carter stays put and continues to grow stronger everyday. I pray you are able to get well rested in the hospital and don't get cabin fever!! You will do what you need to do for this sweet baby boy. I know it is hard, but hang in there....at least you have internet and all of "Us" to be there for you...
Is there anyone that can take the dogs, or come stay at the house so your hubby can stay at the hospital with you?

s.e. said...

Oh, Candi. I wish I could sit by your side and keep you calm. I would tell you "you can do this" until you believed it. I have always admired your strength. You have oversome so much and I fully believe you can endure this too.

It is o.k. to be scared right now but you must try to let your rational side know that you are not to blame. It sounds like you are in good hands and a plan is already in place in case Carter wants to make an early appearance. I will be thinking of you. And although you feel alone tonight, know that you are not. So many people care about you.

Not in the Water said...

Candi~

Don't beat yourself up...we can't always control our bodies...and it doesn't listen to our words sometimes. You know? You can't stress over...just try to relax and not beat yourself (Gees I should take my own advice huh?)

Please don't worry...My fave student was born at 28 weeks and he is 9 now and a big boy. He loves to come into my room and he's just so full of life and smiles.

All will be fine!!!!

Tara said...

Doesn't sound like there's anything for you to feel guilty about. This is not within your control.

Hang in there, girl.

Lisa said...

Candi -

Try not to stress out over this. You don't need the stress nor does Carter. You are in the best possible place right now if Carter is born and most importantly you & Carter are safely in God's arms. Just try to relax, read or sing to Carter and rely on God to get you through. I am keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there girl. HUGS!!

Fiddle1 said...

You have all of my thoughts, well wishes and prayers. Carter, you stay put. Candi, you did nothing to cause this. Labor happens when the body decides. I'm sorry for the stress, and sorry for your disappointment. Much love coming your way...

Taylor & Krisa said...

You are an amazing mother already! I will be praying for Carter's safe arrival. I know he is in God's hands and you are too! I'm sorry you have to be cooped up in the hospital for so long. Keep us updated - we will be praying and thinking of you!

Sully said...

You haven't let anyone down - don't ever feel that way. Get as much rest as you can and put your faith in those Dr's and nurses - they'll make sure that Carter stays put as long as possible. You'll be in my prayers.

HereWeGoAJen said...

I am so sorry this happened now. But it just happened and you didn't cause it. Everything will be okay.

Morrisa said...

Oh sweetie, I am so so sorry. Just know that you did nothing to cause this. You are not letting Carter down and you didn't fail in any way. You are an amazing Mommy. Sometimes these things just happen. I'm praying like crazy that everything goes well, there is no infection, and that the little one is able to bake a bit longer.

Tina said...

Oh my goodness. I can't get into blogworld for a couple of days and look what I miss. You and little Carter are in my prayers. I don't know if I have told you this but I'm a high risk L&D nurse and I have seen women go 20 weeks after rupture of membranes. I have faith Little Carter will stay put for a while.